This week, someone asked me to rank the different buckets in my life – business, relationships, health, spirituality. ***HAPPY MONDAY TO ME🥴🥴🥴🥴

When I got talking about spirituality, I almost started to cry.

I took myself by surprise and sputtered at her, “I don’t know where this is even coming from.”

I grew up Catholic.

Church choir in college at Madison Wisconsin where I played the flute (like huh what?!), Catholic school all the way through, wore a scapular for like 10 years with saint medals and would collect saint books in the same way I now collect half read self-help business books. ****is this an addiction transfer Dear God no pun intended….
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Even with religion, I can’t do anything normal – I go deep and borderline obsessive on things I throw myself into.

But today? I basically renounce it all.

The older I get, the more I resent religion. The very nature of it feels divisive, exclusionary, and any good bits get ruined by humans.

My mom now also agrees. My grandma Conway (RIP) always agreed.

But I’m not NOT spiritual.

In moments of panic, fear, and hope, I find myself closing my eyes and reciting prayers, calling out God’s name internally.

I actually enjoy going to Church from time to time because there is something soothing in ritual and it’s a place that holds tremendous nostalgia for me.

And I think that contradiction is what has been eating at me a lot lately….

I don’t know why I teared up when spiritually came up, but I do feel a bit barren in that lane if I’m being honest.

And I don’t think I’m running Dirty Dancing Style (Like I did to my former NBC work husband who visited me in Lisbon yesterday) back into the arms of the Catholic Church, but something is telling me I need to evolve here as something IS missing in that department and when you run a business…you often have to give it over to a higher power than just your own mind.

Because it’s straight chaos terror in there. Can’t rely on JUST THAT. 😵‍💫

The deeper I get into life and especially entrepreneurship is the realization that evolution isn’t optional.​
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We’re always changing whether we want to or not.
The question is whether we’re going to fight it or lean into it.

Two years ago, I was terrified I was going to ruin my business by moving from Brooklyn to Lisbon. I had a studio, I was doing brand videos, I had this whole setup that felt… safe.

But I stumbled into a different iteration of my path. Building MyStoryPro, creating AI tools for storytelling and teaching in ways I never imagined.

This move to Lisbon is for sure the best decision I ever made for my family and my business. But it didn’t start that way.

I’m not the only one going through this.
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I’m working privately with a 7-figure entrepreneur right now who is incredibly successful. Her business is thriving, she doesn’t work summers, she travels often with her family, she’s got a reputable personal brand, she’s built something amazing and yet…..

Even she knows she needs to evolve. ​
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She’s in a season of change, questioning what comes next, how to grow beyond where she is now and how to showcase her true self in an industry that is SO CROWDED and AI making it worse.

Success doesn’t exempt you from evolution.
It actually demands it.

My new*ish friend Justin Welsh (the guy I randomly booked a flight to meet in London last month like a true bunny boiling psychopath because I’ve been a fan of his for years..) wrote something recently that really stuck with me.
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​He talked about this idea of having multiple “career adventures” instead of one 40-year slog.

His example: A friend spent 30 years becoming one of the best tax attorneys you can find. But he recently told Justin he fantasizes about burning his business to the ground.

“I’m great at doing something I hate. How’s that for success?”

Meanwhile, another friend is on her third wildly different career in 13 years. Marketing agency → food brand → AI coding software. Each built on lessons from the previous one. Each more profitable than the last.

She’s not a master of anything specific, but she’s having the time of her life.
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We get so attached to our stories – “I’m the video person,” “I’m the tax attorney,” “I’m the former Catholic who hates religion.”

But we are allowed to rewrite those stories.
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I’m realizing that’s exactly what I’m doing with my spiritual journey.

I don’t know what it looks like yet, but I’m starting to seek out people I trust – people I view as spiritual and really good humans who HAPPEN to be religious.

I’m asking questions, reading, exploring. (Any recs, by the way? I can’t promise they won’t stack up but I always start confidently)

It feels weird to admit I might be changing my mind about something I was so sure about.

But isn’t that what growth is? Letting our stories evolve instead of staying trapped in old versions of ourselves?

The entrepreneur I’m working with (I’ll share more once our project is complete) isn’t just evolving her business – she’s evolving her whole identity.
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From “successful founder” to “successful founder who’s brave enough to keep growing.”

Your story isn’t meant to be one long chapter.
It’s meant to be a book with lots of adventures -good and bad ones.
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We’re all allowed to write new chapters.

Not because the old ones were wrong, but because we’re not the same people we were when we wrote them.

What chapter are you in right now? And what might the next one look like?

I don’t think you’ll find me in a Nun habit or a Buddhist silent retreat in Tibet anytime soon… erm…EVER but all I know for NOW is that I’m leaning into the curiosity of whatever I am feeling.
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​Speaking of curiosity…

I got the best testimonial this week for MyStoryPro from a media executive who uses our tool. She wrote me a mini novel (only read it 87665 times) about how she uses it (mostly spars with Pocket Patrice) and was reflecting on why she prefers it to any tool on the market.

“Pocket Patrice is curious. She wants to understand. She asks questions.” ​
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I hope you stay curious.

Whether it’s spirituality, business, or whatever comes next – I’m learning to trust the questions more than the answers.

Have a great weekend!!

Talk soon,

XO
Patrice